Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Self-pity

If I want people to read my blog, and I do, then perhaps the title should be something a bit happier, more inviting. But I feel like having a pity-party right now and felt the title is appropriate.
I just don't get it. I have tried my entire life to be a good person, to be kind to everyone I cross paths with, and yet I have very few friends. I get taken advantage of. I wake up one day with fantasies of better things to come and feeling the exact opposite the next. I feel alone. Misunderstood. Unimportant. Disrespected. I am told I don't talk enough and that I don't express what I want. But then when I do, it isn't respected. I am damned if I do and damned if I don't. I know I need to start living my life the way I want it to be, but I just don't know how. I don't know how.